So...ya....about that...
I am failing. Horribly failing. The motivation and desire I had during this same time last year is nowhere to be found. I have gained weight. Lots of weight. I don't necessarily like it but I am not exactly inspired to do something about it. I could regale you with my impressive collection of a bazillion rather clever and well thought out excuses for my lack of motivation but in the end they are just that, excuses. I don't know what it is going to take to bring back the focus. I have given up my cheesecake vow, although I have yet to actually eat any of its deliciousness. In a world of Magnum bars, cookies, doughnuts, and just about anything else that you can imagine that is delicious in my mouth, it is exceedingly more difficult to just say "no".
I could also entertain you with all the different distractions I currently have in my life, but then again, they are just distractions. In my defense, I have never claimed to have an attention span longer than the average 2 year old!! Let's see...work, living situation, friends, family, "dating", Gizmo, finding emotional health, combine all these ingredients and there you have the recipe for making Lindsay the most distracted, over-weight woman in the world!
So...how do I get my focus back?? How do I key into whatever it was that drove me to Moody Hotness only a year ago? I don't know. Perhaps a new commitment to updating my blog on a regular basis will do the trick. Maybe filling my room with mirrors and walking around naked for hours on end until the very thought of chocolate makes me physically ill...oh boy...this could get a little crazy.
While I don't know yet what the solution is, I do commit to letting you all in on the decision and plan once it is made. I do promise to update this more often and at least let you all know exactly where I am, epic failures and all!!
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