Why "Operation Moody Hotness"?

Okay, so I am writing this blog for a couple of reasons:
1. I have a lot of people who ask me how I have lost 78lbs and what my motivation is.
2. So I have a place to track my progress: both positive and negative (well hopefully all positive)

The answer to the first questions is....drum roll please...I have NO idea! I don't know what drives me. At first it was the inevitable dream of revenge on the guy that broke my heart! C'mon ladies, we all have those fantasies where we run into the ex at the store and, of course, have perfect makeup and a little black dress! Don't tell me it's not true! Then it became about looking good in the little black dress I would use to torture him.  Then it became about looking good in the little black dress just so I feel good. That's where I got stuck.  I had lost 78 lbs and was looking better and better in clothes but was sincerely unhappy.  It was then that I woke up and realized that it is about transforming all of me...not just the outside.  While it is all well and good to be able to rock a pair of Calvins, it would mean nothing if I was dark and confused inside. And what good would it be to exact revenge on a guy that I hope to never see again...except maybe in the grocery store, with flawless makeup, wearing the little black dress, and with a male model at my side (ok so I added a little)?? So, my new motivation is to recognize the things that  brought me to the point of 245lbs (yep at 5'3" and 245lbs..I was the hotness!) and hopefully never go back. Don't worry, this is not a place for me to journal my innermost feelings and get all Dr. Phil.  In fact, this blog will have little to no personal thoughts or revelations, unless of course I meet the really hot male model! Then y'all better prepared with your gag reflex because I am going to shouting it from the mountain tops Julie Andrews style!

The second reason I am writing this is that hopefully it is what keeps me going.  I commit to sharing my diet and exercise, hopefully daily but at the least weekly. I am hoping this keeps me away from the fridge! I mean, who wants to admit to the world wide web that they binged on 2 slices of cheesecake, a pint of Ben & Jerry's, an entire container of chocolate chip cookie dough, 2 Jr. Bacon Cheeseburgers, an order of large fries, and washed it all down with Diet Pepsi (I am watching my girlish figure and who needs the calories from real sugar?)! So, while I know that eating the above list would be more fun, I am really hoping that posting about my consumption of protein shakes and carrots will be just as enjoyable! I am also going to be posting some before and after pictures. Don't worry, there is no way I am posting "Biggest Loser" style pics! No way I would subject my loyal readers and those I love to a picture of me in spandex and a sports bra.  I won't be able to afford the therapy bills that you all incur as a direct result! I have a personal trainer to pay!!

Please feel free to share your thoughts, advice, healthy recipes, and even work out music suggestions! I have a long 12 weeks ahead of me and I am sure my iPod selection and food list are going to get a bit monotonous!

So there you have it, Ladies and Gentlemen, Lindsay's reasons for documenting her journey to losing 40lbs in only 12 weeks!!

Happy Reading!